Alone…?
Alone
Always on the outside looking in
As I move worlds and try to find a home within
Without one outwardly
Patiently waiting to see
What emerges for me
In a life of living and giving
Am I meant to receive?
To find what I’m looking for before I leave
Looking for the signs to make me believe
Looking for a second pair of eyes
That sees the same prize
Someone beautiful and wise
In a world filled with lies
I’m trying to find the truth
And discover the proof
That it’s part of my life’s plans
To have someone that understands
Always close
but not quite the right
Picturesque life quote
In this Instagram land
I’m missing the boat
Cause I’m lost at sea
Fishing for intimacy
Can I catch someone that will really know me
And can grow with me?
Is this how it’s suppose to be?
For a long time I was meant to be alone
It was the light that shone upon my path
It enabled me to find and develop my craft
It allowed me to see the world that I see
To find and know a deeper part of me
There’s nothing that I would change
As my thoughts take center stage
But It’s time to write a new page
It’s time to find Her
and live a new chapter
Am I asking for too much?
For something that’s real
And that I can touch
Always cast in the role of outsider
When will I find my perfect co-star?
Searching far and wide
Is it for something that I hide?
Or is it hidden from me?
Permanently figuring out the way to be
Such is the downside of a life that’s free
Looking for a relationship
With purpose and meaning
Does it exist or can I only find it when I’m dreaming?
It doesn’t have to be perfection
Just a place of resting in the protection
Of a deeper connection
I’m tired so I’m gonna complain
About constantly going against the grain
I know I have a different purpose
But sometimes I wonder if its worth it
If it’s worth the sacrifice
that comes with this kind of life
My life isn’t meant to be the same
It’s lived and shot from a different frame
Besides we have more to gain
When we take the long road
The best stories take time to unfold
When I’m old
what story will be told?
Will it be of a lonely soul?
Or will my journey through life end
With someone who’s a lover, wife and friend?